My Computer Crashed....

...Yeah, big help to the blood pressure. My classes are due in less than two weeks, I haven't even started one and I have no computer. I'm spending my time bribing Brian for his. And I thought it could only get better...

High Blood Pressure...

....Yeah....I'm done. I'm 23 years old. I'm eating healthy, loosing weight yet my BP rises, lets see what might that suggest? STRESS. My Dr told me that he has never put a 23 yr old on BP drugs so he prefers I take a vacation. Yeah, to where? R is out of town for 6 weeks doing those current credit hour thingys you have to do to keep your Master's up to date so C is here all by herself with these girls AND having to work more hours. What am I going to do? Just up and tell her I need a vacation? In the meantime the girls are literally crawling the walls. Last time I wrote I was upset because I couldn't pee by myself, well, now I just don't pee cause they are just so crazy I'm scared to leave them for a second. K knocked her head right in front of me and bled like I've never seen anything bleed before. Scared the living you know what out of me and I was sitting there watching her. She was fine and then she wasn't. Furthermore, I took them to their 1yr appt and Q weighs a great deal less than she should and K doesn't weigh a whole heck of a lot more. They are both shoving food in as fast as possible so I don't think that's a problem. The dr said to just give them some time to catch up but I want to be DOING something ya know?

THEN...Since the girls are so insane I'm getting NO schoolwork done, it's due Aug 2nd and I'm so quickly running out of time it isn't even funny but in the meantime I'm essentially the sole caregiver for one year old twins...GREEEEAAAT. I can't imagine loving these girls anymore even if they were mine, but I swear it is impossible to do all of this. I just can't do it all. I have to drop a ball somewhere, which one is going to go?