गेत्तिंग स्तार्तेद

Everytime I write a title for this post it comes out in some sort of Eastern language...It's just not worth the hassel.

I think it's going to take me a couple posts to really give a complete update since I've been gone so long...I guess I'll catch up along the way. In a nutshell, my life is rather insane at the moment. I'm working 20 hours a week with the girls, 20 hours of internship and 15 hours of classes. I was daydreaming in class today thinking OMG, if you think about all the paperwork I'm doing for my internship (+/-10 hours depending on the week) and all the homework I'm doing (+/- 15-20 hrs/wk) I'm working give or take a 90 hour week. No wonder I can't get rid of the exhaustion!! Thank God Brian more or less makes me put it all away one weekend night a week for martini's, hot baths and movies. Sometimes I hate him for it but it's really the only time I sit down for a deep breath. As a whole things are pretty good though. If it weren't for being so worn out I would be relatively happy. Unfortunately I am interning at a place where there is a propensity for DSS/CPS involvement, it breaks my heart everytime I have to call them and that's pretty regularly. Sooner or later I'll get used to it and I won't come home with a pile of kleenex's on the floor of my car but at the same time I don't ever want to become cold hearted to it. Some of my supervisors are pretty cut off. I know to a degree you have to be and most of the ones I'm talking about work on the Sexual Trauma team so there has to be some sort of seperation and humor or how would you ever sleep at night? I guess there is a happy medium somewhere. Maybe the peaople I'm talking about are in that happy medium but looking at them as such a fresh therapist is hard. But this is the profession I have chosen and for the most part I enjoy it. I just need to get away from the kids. Watching the kids deal with this just kills me day in and day out. I need a rich couple who's biggest argument in life is how to spend that 20 million...In my dreams right;)